Life Changes

I created this blog in August while going through a really tough anti-depressant medication change. I never really had any direction for it. I read my friend's posts regularly, now. Each one of them has some sort of purpose behind their posts - children, school, family...I'm thinking now that I have my own reasons and I thought that it would be a great way to chronicle the journey!

After 5 1/2 years of marriage and 10 years together Justin and I have decided to start a family. We decided a bit late in the month this month, but are excited for our next chance to conceive in January. I've been ready for this change in my life for a while. Justin has taken a bit more time to be ready, mainly for financial concerns, but I wanted him to be ready on his own. Not with my pushing. Not with my nagging. When he was ready. I let him know that I was ready whenever he was, and left it at that.

We hadn't had a real conversation about starting a family in quite some time. We joked about it. I ooh-ed and aah-ed at friend's little ones, babies on TV, pregnant women... He joked to friends in a sarcastic tone about how "excited" he was for parenthood. But in the last few weeks, we've actually talked about it and have since started trying. His acceptance of this change came all at once, at least from my perspective, but I'm so glad that we're 100% in this together. We have a solid marriage and I can genuinely say I'm married to my very best friend. If there's anyone I want as a partner in this, it's him. He's going to be an amazing dad, and has an incredible heart for kids. It will be fun to experience the ups and downs together.

I'm excited, scared, nervous and anticipating the challenges and joys of parenthood. I feel like I've been a parent for so many years already, since I work with kids for a living. I feel like a second "mom" to a lot of our friend's kids, but this will be so much different. I can't wait for the day when I will find out that my dreams of becoming a mom will become a reality! Stay tuned!